Meditating with ADD

Not going to happen.

Sometimes it seems as though meditation is beyond my mind's capabilities. At the age of 7 I was diagnosed with ADD which means there is a chemical in my brain that allows neurons to sometimes fire off more randomly than the average brain. So while the average mediator's mind may sound like this--"            Breath            Did I        Breathe                                                      I hope I" (very few interruptions in comparison to myself.) My brain sounds like "Breathe, wow my eyelids look red Stop it! stop thinking! just let it drift out.... Breathe... I wonder if I will win that scholarship, I mean I did write a beastly OH MY GOD STOP IT! Breathe."

I know that this is something I need to work on though, even if it is almost excessively difficult. Most Wicca books have horrible sections on meditation. I have no use of finding a "fairy spirit guide" and I'm leaving a totem animal to Fight Club. Some of the techniques they gave me made things more difficult but simply suggesting that I clear my mind, when is it almost physically impossible for me to have a clear mind, ever.

The search for multiple and varied techniques lead me to the Yoga Magazine (http://www.yogajournal.com/) one of their articles listed about 5 totally different techniques including using a mantra. By repeating an idea over and over rather than trying to get rid of all idea kept my lightning brain calm and focused but still left me fidgety. I've always been a fidgety person. Whenever I sit I always sit on my feet for example.

Most Malas have 108 beads but mine has 28. 108 has special significance for Hindus.

It was in my quest for movment that I stumbled upon (but not literally) mala beads. Mala beads are similar to a Catholic rosary but are used to count mantras rather than prayers. I'm really hoping that the combination of sound, touch, and effort will increase my focus and over time my overall mental disapline and mental state in general.

Make what you do fit YOUR needs.